"I want to see you tonight, but I think you need to work tomorrow and..."

Just ended a relationship in which I got really confused of myself. It was a long and life-changing one. I was sad and desperate. But like Bill Burr once said "On the third day, you rub one out.", which basically what I did everyday after that.

I got on dating app, not sure whether I wanted to prove that I was worthy by being myself or just my sex drive was too damn high.

"In Korea, we call it "relation-addicted", one of my friend said. Probably. More like sex-addicted sometimes I'd say.

As a foreigner at the time, I wasn't expecting anyone would like me and got a match since I couldn't get any match in my own country. Surprisingly, there were some matches but most of the conversations went dry or not continued except her.
Her pictures showed a regular girl just like me, and with a pretty long introduction which also showed innocent personality. I could tell she was testing water by asking my height etc. and also mentioned that it was better we just be friends, which was totally fine with me at the time.

And then she somehow asked me for a lunch. I agreed because I needed to go out and meet more people.
She was beautiful. Nerdy but beautiful. Despite I was being awkward at the lunch, we decided to have a walk in town to the riverside. We were about the same height and she was a bit bigger size, which made me feel that she probably preferred a taller and stronger man than I was. But we talked a lot during the walk and at one point when we sat on the riverside, she kind of buried my hand in the sand and I found that was really cute of her. I couldn't move my eyes from her. And of course, as awkward as I was, we had a awkward ending of the day.

"I want to see you tonight, but I think you are tired and both of us need to work tomorrow and ...." I found her messaged me a few days later. I didn't go that night. But we still maintained contact and she asked me to clubbing on Friday night. Yes, of course. That was the best night of my clubbing career! We had a few drinks and danced. There were even some girls flirting with me, but I stayed with her even though she said it's fine to have fun with others.
Eventually we left and I offered to walk her home. Just to be as polite as possible. It was cold and I offered my jacket to her and cuddles during the walk.

Fast forward, she invited me in her place. We hugged, kissed and went in her room.

We cuddled in bed but neither of us could fall asleep. I buried my face in her hair as I was in my favorite big spoon position. She smelled so good and I started to kiss on her neck all the way to her ear. I licked and sucked her earlobe as I ran my fingers through her arm and body with soft touch. I felt her started to breath deeply and push and rub her butt hard against my genital. I grabbed her boob hard and stuck my tongue in her ear canal deep. From her deep loud breath, I could tell she was all horny and wanted me right now. My hand reached in her pantie and, oh girl, it was over flooded all the way down to her butt hole. I went on top of her, kissed her all the way from her lips to her boobs, nipples, to her tummy. I stripped her pants and pantie down and spread her legs.

She shaved!

I licked her from her knees to her thighs, and took a close look of her wet pedals. She was drooling. I covered her pussy with my wide opened mouth, licked her pussy way down to her butt hole, tried not wasting any drop of her juice. I've been thirsty for too long. She grabbed her own boobs hard and moaned louder and louder. My tongue ran around her clit faster and faster, hoping she could produce more honey for me.

"Can you finger me?" She asked me to put two finders in her desperately.

I rubbed inside her vagina, slow but hard while kiss her boobs. She started to rub her clit with her eyes closed but peeked at me every two seconds. I fingered her faster and suck her nipple hard. I could hear her wetness stirring and feel her contraction in her vagina. Suddenly she closed her legs and thrust her pelvis repeatedly, along with loud satisfied moans. Her contraction was so hard that my fingers were squashed and couldn't stay in the same form(gesture?).

I pulled my fingers out slowly and rubbed her clit gently. She looked like she could fall asleep in any minute. I kissed on her forehead and just looked at her.

Then?

The rest of the night was all turn-off. I didn't bring condoms with me, but she did have a box in her room. She asked me if I wanted to have sex, and I hesitated. Why? I don't know, and I wasn't turn on anymore. She asked me if I wanted her to give me blowjob. I said yes because I've always been looking for a good blowjob. She looked at my penis after sucking a few times, and....She told me there was one guy she had sex with bled from his penis so she continued to check on my penis. At that point my horniness was a thousand miles away, and my penis was flaccid since then.

I was pathetic that I still tried very hard to get hard. The night ended with me rubbed one out in the condom.

But the next morning I punished her hard with my penis. : )