My dad died when I was 17 and I continued to live with my 43 year old stepmother. As time went by the sexual tension increased and eventually we reached a point where she felt comfortable letting me see her naked. She allowed me to jack off while looking at her naked body, but only on very rare occasions was I allowed to touch her...usually a night as we slept in the same queen sized bed. At 18 I was fully prepared to move out on my own, but she convinced me to stay with her by promising that on the day I turned 21 she would fulfill my fondest dream and have sex with me. Eventually, we moved on to oral sex...she taught me how to please her, but she would only jack me off. I never had a blow job. When I would threaten to leave and find a girlfriend of my own, she would laugh and say that there was no way any girl would want to be with someone who had a three and a half inch penis. It's true, I was so ashamed of my small penis that I never had any other sexual experience with anyone except a male cousin when I was 14...we had jacked each other off a few times. Afraid that I would never be able to please any other girl, I stayed with my stepmom and dreamed of the day when she would go "all the way" with me. On my 21st birthday, my dream finally came true. It was about 11 p.m. and we had been watching TV when she said that she as ready to keep her promise. My little cock was standing at attention as she undressed. Her thick bush was all that I had dreamed of for 5 years. I had rubbed it, fingered it, and licked it, but I had never ever been allowed to fuck it. This was it...my first real pussy. She pulled me to her, and as the head of my cock entered her outer lips...damn...I was spurting cum all in and on her. I had dreamed of that pussy for so long that the actual feel of it was just more than I could handle.She laughed and said that it was no big deal. Now two years later, I am still in the same situation. Whenever I get the opportunity to fuck my stepmom, which isn't very often because she prefers that I perform oral sex only, as soon as my dick gets into that moist pussy I am spurting cum. On average I usually manage to last about 20 seconds. 45 seconds would be a record for sure.I've tried everything, but her pussy is just so sexy that I can't stand it. I read somewhere that if a guy jacks off before sex then he can last longer. I tried it many times, but the truth is I could rub my little cock raw and drain it of cum but the second I slide it into my stepmom, it is going to spurt...I just can't help it. We basically live together now as husband and wife,in spite of the age difference. She allows me to service her occasionally...we still sleep in the same bed. Most nights I just lie next to her desperately pulling my pathetic little cock while I dream about fucking her like a "real" man. In the last year she has started going out some with guys that she works with. What can I do? I obviously can't satisfy her sexually, and it is highly doubtful that I could ever satisfy any other woman either. So I just have to be content with things the way they are.